Hospitals!

Hello there

I have gone to all three public hospitals in Johannesburg. I am afraid to say I still have not found my sister. There was a very nice woman at the Helen Joseph Hospital and she gave me an address of a place in Pretoria where they keep photos of all Jane does and Joe does that have been buried by the state. So I guess that is my next stop.

I don't know what to tell the kids now. They have been really hoping that I will find their mother. They are now very disappointed and so am I. But I will not give up. I have to keep trying as I have promised my father. When I spoke to him on Christmas day he said, he doesn't care how long it takes as long as I come back home with my sister. Dead or alive. So I have to keep at it. I have used so much money my savings are diminishing. All of a sudden find myself having to be a mother to the kids.

I was thinking of sending them home ahead of me but I am so scared that something will happen on the bus on their way home and I know that their grandfather will hold me accountable for that.

Tomorrow I have to go to Pretoria and see if my sister is amongst the Jane does. Its scary but it has to be done.